Life Update// Where I’ve Been

Hey guys, I’m back! I know it’s been a while since I last published a blog post. I can blame it on school, work, volunteering and so many other things but truthfully I just didn’t have the motivation to do anything blog related. I lost all motivation. Now that I’m practicing social distancing, I decided to use the time that I usually don’t have wisely to create more content.

 Let me be real with you, there were days when I would force myself to write a post or shoot content, but it just never happened. Although I haven’t posted in a while, the last couple of weeks, I began finding inspiration. My recent trip home to Antigua has motivated me and given me the energy mentally and emotionally. Now I’m not perfect, to be completely honest, I still have my moments, but I keep it pushing. 

But before we resume the regular content, I want to share with you a little life update with why I haven’t been uploading and where I’ve been these last few weeks. 

I Went Home To Antigua

As you guys know by now, my long term goal is to have my non-profit organization. Part of me working towards that goal is by donating items to those in the vulnerable population. As a public health student, I have a keen interest in maternal, child, and adolescent health. It is my mission to ensure that women and children have access to the basic essentials that will help to improve their health. My trip home was not all work; of course, I had a little fun. I was able to spend time with my family and see some of my friends. Obviously, because of COVID19, we only got to do so much. This little getaway home was what I needed. Now I’m daydreaming about the next trip home. 

view overlooking Nelson’s Dockyard, Antigua

I Fell Into A Comparison Trap

Let me say it’s funny how quickly comparison can crush your confidence. All of a sudden, self-doubt creeps in, and you start questioning your worth. It makes you start to think that you should do more and be better.

It is easy to get caught up in this era of social media. You may see someone doing something you’ve always wanted to do or see someone excelling in the things you’re doing. Instead of looking at everyone, I followed on social media for inspiration like I usually do, I started to feel overwhelmed. I got a bit discouraged by their success or how pretty their feed was. Everyone seemed to be doing good and was successful at what they do while I was feeling stuck and lost.

To be honest with you, comparing myself to others as well as having self-limiting beliefs and the need to be perfect made me procrastinate a lot and have held me back from doing the things I set out to do when it comes to my blog. I became obsessed with focusing on the metrics and growing this social media count, and I began to shift from my why. I started my blog to inspire and empower you to embrace your uniqueness, yet here I was straying from that. We are living in a world that values hustle and the work-hard mentality, and nothing is wrong with that. If 2020 has taught us anything, it’s how important it is to slow down and to make the most of our time.

Find inspiration, do not compare yourself to others because, at the end of the day, everyone’s journey is not the same. I had to check myself, and I also did a little self-reflection. 

Anyways, having said all that, my friends I am back and with a much different mindset. I told myself I’m going back to the basics. I’m going back to why I started this blog, and the goal is to inspire and empower you. I have some posts lined up, and I’ll do my best to be more consistent and show up for you guys. You can expect to see more of my school life more particularly my Grad school journey cause your girl is about to graduate in a few weeks and more lifestyle content. I’m also thinking of adding more Public Health related content, which at this time I’m sure you guys would appreciate and also focus a bit on wellness. I am going to share more of myself, let you guys in some more so that you get to know me more, and can grow our community. 

It feels good to be back. Until the next post!

Xo, Tanya